I'm the type of person to listen to a song repeatedly for weeks on end. When that lucky song takes up all my listening time, most people don't actually understand why I would devote so much time to that single song. Apparently, they don't connect with the same things emotionally that I do...which is perfect.
When that song's components stimulate my soul and my mind; all I want is more.
I wonder why some people in my life really don't feel music. They can feel the beat, they can love the guitar and piano solos, and even think the climax of the song is brilliant... but I don't understand why those same people look at me funny when I say that a certain song brings tears to my eyes. They have not a clue what it feels like to be emotionally in tune with a songs ingredients. All I can say is that God created them perfect and I am grateful that I can listen to a joyous song and yet have tears in my eyes because the lyrics hit home.
A few months ago I went out to coffee with a dear friend, whom I see as a big brother full of wisdom and truth. Kevin relates a lot to me in that he truly is passionate, emotionally responsive and very in tune with the heart God has given him. Because of this, Kevin is quite the perfect person to talk with when I need someone who can doubtlessly feel where I am coming from. He mentioned the new single by The Fray called, " You Found Me ".
When connecting with music I have found that I have a fervor for minor chords, voices that wail the lyrics ( bc they believe every word they are singing ) and expectedly, music that ultimately points to God. " You Found Me ", by The Fray, hits all of those elements in my mind.
All of the pieces put together to create that song are absolutely amazing. Just looking at the words in the chorus put a smile on my face because of what it all points to.
Lost and insecure
You found me, You found me
Lying on the floor
Why’d you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, You found me
I am affected when I hear the lyrics, " Why'd You have to wait ?"... So often I ask God this... already knowing the answer. " Jesus, why haven't you brought me there in life yet?", " Jesus, why haven't you healed the past wounds in my life yet?" ... Bottom line, I need to crash entirely before I can truly run with what God wants to give me. God is not about to give me my desires while I still am incapable of maneuvering them to His fullest. That is why God waits.
A close friend of mine, Eric Scofield, once told me that when God waits and is seemingly not answering you... He is simply purging you from your idols. I now find myself pondering on that during the times at which I feel like I am being ignored. Now, the time between when we pray to God for something and the time we actually receive it is another discussion entirely. Waiting on God, and waiting on ourselves to be fully prepared for the glory he wants to reveal in our lives is everything but easy...
Praise God for waiting and not being hasty with us. What a disaster my life would be if God continually gave me what I thought I was ready for. I would forever be in a trivial and shallow state of mind.